Mom, you are the strongest person I know. Life is difficult. You are the person who tries to keep everyone happy, but end up being the most lonely one. I admire you and respect you. I am thankful to have known you. Your voice was the first sound I heard in this life, and your voice is the prettiest. Time and life has taken away a lot from you. Your health has been struggling. For the last couple of years, you have been to the doctor almost every week to check up and stay healthy.
And two days ago you had a five hour long brain surgery. Brain surgery. To remove a tumor. Luckily it was benign. That day I was empty. I knew it was going to be different emotionally for me, but after holding myself up all day in the hospital and waiting, I cracked. The nurses told me that I couldn't see you until the day after. My baby brother was sad, so I had to cheer him up. Friends and family was calling and worried, so I had to cheer them up. For a moment I was forgetting about myself and just calming everyone around me down. I was telling them how you were OK and that it was only going to go up from now, but what did I know?
That day I came home, home to you. You stayed at the hospital. The doctors was saying that you were sleeping and that the surgery went good. I cleaned the house. Baby brother went to sleep. Then I went out, out for a walk, because I couldn't breathe. I was tired. My mind was tired. I wanted to hear your voice. I think I was out for almost two hours, just around the neighborhood.
Then all the sudden my phone was ringing and it said "Mamma" and we talked and I felt like me again.
I'm back again. Lately I've been doing some work on my photography website, and it is now live at www.pirilmaria.com and running. This blog will continue to be here as always, only from now on I will be publishing only photography related posts, such as photo sessions I've been doing, tips and tricks, small daily doses of my life and so on.
I am very excited to get back on track with writing and sharing. Not only for you my readers, but also for myself. I am so thankful for everything good in my life, including the opportunity to connect and share moments with amazing people everywhere. Although I've been "away" from the blog, you can always find me on facebook and instagram. Feel free to follow me there as well.
So, just to check, who is here? Let me know in the comments.