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Monday, December 15

"Oh-no-I-am-not-a-15-year-old-dreamer-this-is-my-life-and-I-have-to-wake-up-stop-pretending-this-is-just-temporary"

It's been a while since I did this. Write. I've had so much going on in my life. I forgot to write. One of them "Oh-no-I-am-not-a-15-year-old-dreamer-this-is-my-life-and-I-have-to-wake-up-stop-pretending-this-is-just-temporary" kind of nights happened tonight. He went to bed early. He was tired. He passed out in the couch. I tucked him into bed, and sat down to watch some old CSI episodes on the TV. I used to watch that TV show when I was living at my old home, my parents home, with my mom. It brought back the same feeling that I had back then. Felt like a child again. Four hours later. I decided to go to bed too.

The wind made noise and I could hear it banging branches into walls, and our balcony furniture being blown away. That whistle sound that the wind makes when blowing through small spaces, well I could hear that too. I woke up again and now I'm here. As I was lying in bed, it hit me. Hit me real good. The "Oh-no-I-am-not-a-15-year-old-dreamer-this-is-my-life-and-I-have-to-wake-up-stop-pretending-this-is-just-temporary" feeling hit me. I am an adult. I live with my husband. We have our own home. This is my life right now. He is the one. We work, so that we can accomplish some goals in life. We are together. Me and him.

We bought some noel decorations this year. We have a tree with lights in our living room. The tree is so pretty, in front of my eyes as I write this. The laundry that I did earlier today is hung up and drying. No dirty dishes (thank God), clean floor, clean home, warm and smells nice. We have a cozy and beautiful home. Me and him. Everything is OK and how it's supposed to be. This is how a grown up life is. I'm a wife. I have responsibilities. I cannot just sit and watch TV shows. This is no joke. I have someone in my life, whom I've made big promises too and whom I've exchanged wow's with. We are counting on each other. This is not just temporary. We are not pretending.

I need to stop those few thoughts in my head that makes me think and act childish. Or maybe I don't? Got no clue anymore. All I know is that sometimes I get nights like this, where something is telling me that I need to stop dreaming and thinking this is a romantic movie. It's not. This is my life. This is what's real right now. Sometimes I feel weak and alone, and lately it's been many times. Why?

Well this made no sense at all.

Tuesday, April 29

Taking Stock


Making: photography stuff such as albums, disks and stationary for my new business.
Cooking: from the bottom with hubs. And of course I'm just the helper.
Drinking: loads of coffee at work and homemade lemonade in the sun.
Wanting: to travel to an unknown destination with a beach, sun and palm trees.
Looking: at my fingers as I type these words. I can actually write without looking as well.
Playing: a new game on my phone called Hay Day, I'm obsessed he says.
Wasting: time while playing games and going through my old archives here at the blog.
Wishing: to go away for a vacation this summer.
Enjoying: editing and finalizing photography projects for my new clients.
Waiting: for the bus every morning before work, I get sick of it sometimes.
Liking: the sunny weather in Oslo in April, almost like summer, it's unbeliveable.
Loving: the new flowers we have in our balcony, i'll share, they are the i in spring.
Hoping: hubs finds a job soon. He has been so ready for this, but nothing.
Needing: a vacation.
Wearing: your basic blue jeans and light springy blouses.
Following: everything I've been dreaming about with this photography business of mine.
Noticing: that I've been getting a little chubby around my waist lately.
Thinking: about getting more physically active then I am.
Feeling: ready to live.

Original post found here.

Sunday, April 27

26 On The 26th


Happy Birthday to me!
Turning 26 years old on the 26th of April makes this coming year my golden year. Happy golden birthday to me.

He made me this delicious birthday cake. I love him. 
They surprised me with their company and the bright colored roses. I love them. 

All in all, it was a good day and I was reminded to appreciate life one more time. I try to do that as much as possible, but sometimes I forget, with the daily life rush. I appreciate my family, friends and those I interact with in life. Sometimes just a little birthday greet on the social media is enough for me to send good thoughts your way. I bought a lottery coupon today and played, but not sure if I won yet. Maybe luck will be with me this year and my wishes will come true. Maybe it wont. I'm fine either way. 

Happy!