I miss you.
Ever felt the need to have a shoulder to cry on? I have. Lately a lot more than the last time I did. Our relationship is a precious and delicate one, because of the situation we are in right now. We try to care for each other every day, but sometimes we just need each other to be near. I've told you before about me trying to keep a "happy face" all the time, since I believe that keeping that face will make some of the worst parts of our lives better. Yesterday I lost that face. All the sudden, out of no were my tears started to fall and I felt the urge to cry so bad.
I try so hard to stay strong, and I will for as long as I can, but this results in these random bursts of sadness. I need him to be with me. I need this long and terrible process to be over soon. I believe in God and I believe that things will be good for those who wait. Our relationship has been through the toughest time the last couple of years. We have waited for a permission to be together, to start our lives, to be a family, to love and to live as a couple. He is getting weaker, I try to stay positive, he lose his sight, I give him hope. And so it goes. My head is tired of this and my heart is missing him.
I don't like to use the word "hate" that often so I'll say it like this, I strongly dislike this situation that this case has put us in. I strongly dislike the waiting, the lack of information, the silent and the confusion The Directorate of Immigration has caused us. I've given you all of the documents, I've taken the responsibility to care for my Fiancé and I love him. What more do you want from me?
This is so difficult. Sorry if this is to personal and weird, but I had to get it out there. Thank you for listening.